Please please please let me get what I want

Ok, I can't sleep. I've been feeling so nervous and sick about this election. I've been trying to get my mind off of it by going to movies, concerts, playing video games, reading, anything to take away these incessant dreadful thoughts and trusting the American people to make the right choice for the direction of our country.

I know, I know, Obama is supposed to win. By a landslide. But I will not relax, and this sickening pain in my gut will not go away, until McCain concedes and Palin is sent back to Alaska for good. I am confident that Obama is the right candidate, that the polls are correct, that his ground game is impeccable, ect. However, I am not confident in the American people. Racism is still such a big, sickening part of our country. People are easily swayed by fear, hate, lies, "socialism", and other falsehoods spewed by the Hannity's and Limbaugh's of the world. Americans care more about American Idol and who didn't do what on The Hills than about politics, government, democracy. I mean, it can't be a good sign that the #1 movie the past two weeks has been High School Musical 3, right? We're expecting a country that chooses High School Musical 3 to make a smart, conscious decision about who our next president is?

But this is the time we're going to get it right. I can feel it. I've been nervous about this election, but it's just because I feel I can jinx it. But we're going to pull it off. We're going to take back the White House. We're going to gain our majority in the House and the Senate, and have a filibuster-proof Congress to finally have the power to fix the disaster of the Bush administration and set this country on the course to peace and prosperity. And (hopefully) Californians are going to defeat that ugly Proposition 8 bill, recognizing the hate, bigotry and intolerance behind it and vote for equality for all people.

We're going to have a great, victorious night tonight. And if not, and Obama loses, than these will be the last posts here. But either way, props to Barack Obama for coming this far, for inspiring hope in millions of people around the world, for attempting to overcome prejudices, lies, and history to become the first black president in our nations history.

And, as my friend Kendal wrote on her blog, "This is not a last-ditch plea to persuade anyone to vote for Obama--you'll have to live with that decision yourself".

And if Obama somehow miraculously (or mysteriously... these are Republicans, you know) loses... then peace out, from Portland.

And may God have mercy on our souls.